And off day

Today was one of those days that just seemed all wrong. I have two more days to finish up an edit where I'm absolutely GUTTING a manuscript. It's hard and it hurts and I want to quit writing forever. I don't think I have what it takes to really be a good writer. If an editor has to change my story to make it work, am I really worth the risk? Don't misunderstand please, my editor is right and the story is better. But why didn't I do it right the first time? I don't know...it's just an off day. Woke up ready to dive in and finish this thing, and Little Zoe Bateman discovered that chewing on cords is oh-so-fun. So I am obliviously writing away while she is blissfully at my feet chewing away and all of a sudden I notice my "cord" symbol is gone and the "battery" symbol is on. The little twerp bit through my cord. And here is the problem with owning a Dell....NOTHING fits it but Dell products. So I finally tracked down a laptop I could borrow and got it home only to discover there isn't enough charge in my computer to even save the ms to jumpdrive. So I drive BACK into town and to radio shack, spend over $100 on a universal cord that powers mine, but won't charge the battery. So I'm chained to one spot. I lost almost a whole day of work by the time all was said and done. So today isn't my favorite day. I have to keep reminding myself that This is the Day the Lord has made. I will REJOICE and be glad in it. So far it's not working.....I just want to curl up and forget everything. But if I don't get the edit done, I will ahve to miss out on a conference I planned to go to Wednesday night. I need to get away, to hear from God. I'm confused about things. Relationships, career. I don't know. I feel invisible and it's hard. I know that it's in the cleft of the rock, hidden, that we get to see God pass by and show His glory, so I'm hoping that's where I am. Otherwise, it's just too depressing...